30/11/12

Aready 7 month le going to 8 month soon this few month I have suffer a lot of thing like I crying a lot and miss you and suffer hurt and pain from you and you is hat you wan come back ten come you don't wan come back then never come back I don't why and don't even care my feeling and care me anymore before you say before that your heart till gve me that you want to care the person and this is lies I hate you and I don't why you must to change a person not like you anymore and bring yourself never think of other people only think of yourself and sometimes I really no mood an I was thinking how you treat me an yet you did to me like that and now you thinking am lie you and you can lie to me back and revage all the thing to me this is want you wann to do and let me see weather you are this type of person and this is what you do at first don't blame me treat you till like this bad and I getting feeling that you are getting far and far away from me and I am more scared that you won't come back le and maybe cabbage number and do even wann to care me and let me see your sister le but I till waiting fr you to come back to my side no matter how I hate you always my boy that I love the most and no one can steal at my heart and I will not change my mind of getting a better guy in this life I have choose you yet you leaving me you will regret one day de and only have you seriously you are playing me a fool sometimes I keep starting at the sky ask them why must like that Chen fa wo and I aready change to be a good girl that you know me before and I hope that you always at my side protect me ad my side no matter what thing happens I till cannot stop smoking cause I was very sad and I have a lot of word want to tell you but I for have the chance to tell you le I only can write on the blogger and you olso cannot see de and I hide and we are stop texting. Each other since 2oct 2012 I think maybe I always lies you that why you no more trust me again and once and last and end le or you maybe think that I change a person don't even put this word as real only put like shit or you think not the person that you know me before in the past that playing true and dare with you the first time that cute and pretty and smile at you the look at me when I look at you the time.... You really make my holl life so different for me and even through spoil my mood and change my life become good to wrost and become more crazy like a stupid Idoit sometimes I really don't know what you thinking and I don't know I should gve up or let you be happy or maybe continue waiting for you and be the stupid and stubborn girl keep doing the same thing an sometimes I really get crazy over so many thing sometimes I really think that I am alone and I don't want anyone to suffer with me and at my side sad for me that why I don't wann them to pei me out I rather I ownself being alone an I have told myself you are always like that after he had leaving you alway cannot go in the world that you want and alway hide in the dark and no one can even see you cannot even see the beautiful world and place that you have been through you have in this life and this few day I keep sleep very late sometimes 4 till cannot sleep all cause of you an make me more sad in everything that I have and all the thing is you make me like that all your fault I will make your life till like that same as me suffer te thing you never suffer before you wann be happy it seem like I cannot even do it and I tell myself must be stronge at each sec times and like you fall and cannot even stand up and being yourself and try looking down on you and I don't wish to live at this world an fucking nothing I can do I hate this world you always my important person that I never now you and alway in my heart no one can steal from me and without you I cannot even are something and keep doing the stupid stuff in stealing thing so that can make myself more intersting if you know that I doing this thing you will more get angry this is what I now doing all the thing is you make me till I need to do this type of thing and I don't like it is fun but I really don't wann go police again I cannot put you a side and don't care you maybe that I loving you a lot and tht much till kelp put you as my angle an always and I keep pray for you this few day cause I seem keep raining everyday I scared that you cannot take care of yourself and kena the rain I don't wann you to fall a sick and you have to suffer doing your work don't let it happens this moment ad I have ask your friend to past to you that I have talk to him on fbk ask him to take Carr you dot let me worry you every day like. A mad person I believe that you can do it I want you be a healthy and eat more thing and make yourself more stonger I always put your family as my family cause your mum treat me so well till I love her do much and I olso like her she support me in study and try do well in this study and must really do it this is for you life I have started to love your family no matter how I will pray with your family that I can do when someone is leaving you doesn't he will come back to your side or maybe 1 yrs or 2 yrs that work Na see weather you can wait how long this depends on you de this must see you have work hard or maybe can get this heart back and match with your heart this is call love and a prefect love that you have and being together I keep waiting till my tear and hurt have suffer more and more once again and the last and I believe that he will come back my fade have tell me to waiting for his text and what I promise him the thing I still haven't forget don't lies to you and don't with boy and always remember this cannot fuck pray to god I hope that you really can help me once and last time I promise that I will not do it again how I wish you can take care me when I was about to sim at this time and stay at my side till my sick recover and I wish you can hug me when I was cold and I think my sick will be all right soon and become a normal back he is the right Person and softhearted no matter what I will support you and jiayou for your working and no matter how hard you olso can manger to do and work hard you can do it de wong Shau Hwei alway thinking of him I will go the place that we have been and that is our memory for me and him and reflex what you haw did wrong why will happened this type of thing do I have a chance to see you and forgive what I have did wrong I keep asking the god this is a good question but no answer

13/11/12

i was at police station at 8 Nov and cause i drunk at night with my friend and i was no mood i buy red wine and Heineken ans i was giddy and anyhow scold people and after that i was awake and i don't why my friend call her mother to come and call police and i going to hide but cannot Le and i wan to go in the police and see and when the police ask me where i live i say i don't know cause i don't feel like going home and till wan to slack awhile and actually i wan to tell my friend that i wan to be alone and stay a side and cool down and relax and i never tell her and when the police come i was too sudden and i feel like going home but ready too late and ten they ready send me to police and after that i was tried with the handcraft and i feel very sad and feel like crying and they ask me to change their clothe and i see all those people at there i feel scared and i feel like ask the people why you at there and after that they ask me to register and ask me to stay a side and wait and ten i put my thing and after that i lock in the room and only i one person and the feeling is that a lonely and no one to talk sia ans lock inside 8 hours doing nothing and i seen i very cold and only one blanket and i sleep and after that they keep change the room and after that they ask a girl to pei me and i have someone to talk to she also same case with me and she is only scared her husband and after that they bring us to see a doctor and 10 plus and we go to the room and tie and after that why the police follow us and we take the police car and we sit there and after that it take a long times to reach the hospital and after that i have a chance to talk to the doctor and after that i tell her all the thing and she need to decided with her collage and after that i take about 3 hours to wait for them and the police say that you need to talk to0 them before you think and after that they will send you to the hospital or maybe go home and i go hospital and my friend go home i think that the doctor not good and she let her go don't wan to let me go and she choose to let me to the hospital and after that he straight away bring me to the scared place that i never go in before when i reach the place i keep cry and my parent want to see me i don't wan cause i was crying i don't wan them to sad also and i stay aside and reflection myself and think why must i drink and why my friend wanna to call her mother to come and the police bring me to the hospital and i keep crying i am fine and a normal people and all the person at there is crazy and after awhile i keep seeing the sky and it look dark and cannot even go out the place and need to lock at there and nothing to do and i see the place only got TV and music cannot stay there and i look like crazy and stress and all the thing i look the next day and i think that they are poor and after that if they notice or wake up and see their self and they will look sad and feel like taking care of them and they look so scarey and they live in their own way and some of them they have children and i wish that i can go out faster and one of my friend also same she come here also cry and after that i say doing cry must take it simple and after that i ask her don't cry before one girl tell me and i wonder ask her to help me and she say will caught by police and send u to jail and i don't wan my parent to see me like that and i think the day was faster and after that i think a lot and i tell myself not to cry anymore and must calm down even you how sad you till need to wait the day till you come out the place and i see that my parent keep coming the place and i feel like crying and give them so many problem in this case and they need to run and come here my father have working and he look sad and my mother crying and my heart was so pain and i don't know what to do and i must tell myself must eat and i everyday pray hard each day and the times is so fast and i have a new friend and we are strong in everything that we have suffer in the hospital and we know already that we cannot do it again and tell yourself cannot come tyo0 the place that you already have wrong and this is the last chance and this few day i at there i never even eat and i can sleep and after eating sleep all the day is like that and i take it okay already and i tell the doctor about my thing and if i think again i will go play with my friend and have a activity or stay at home or listen to music to let me relax and after that wont think so much in him anymore but 4 day when i was sleep i think of him again and i cannot believe i think i love him a lot and he is the important people in my life and i see the doctor at Mon he ask me i am okay i feel better i say okay and after that you can sleep mi say can and ask your parent got come and visit you i say have they decided to let me out and after that my parent see the doctor and i don't know Wat they say and my father tell me that 1 month i very scared and you lie to me and after that i need to wait for 12 plus ten the doctor give me a medicine and it is the sleep thing and i have no sick and after that i feel that i can go out i feel very happy and m y parent also and i feel very fresh when i was out of the place and my parent drive me to the place that eat and me and my father eat rice and eat happily and i very happy and when i reach home i faster text my friend and tell them i am fine and i feeling better and don't worried me and i faster use my hp and home is better ten hospital and i have a lot of thing to do and i was so tired but i go out clement and reborn my hair and after that i meet my friend and i was stranger at the place i go and last i feel lonely again

i writing this is he aready 2 week never text me le and i cry for him and hurt more and keep thinking about him sia and miss hi badly i dont know i can see him ma and it seem like very far far always from me and he do that to me again and all the thing that he say is a lie and i wont believe him anymore and i cannot even trust him le and he promise the thing i never do it and i think he olso never do it ba and i think he dont even care me le and i think alot should i give up or let him happy and have his happeneiss and i can see that he aready with the girl going 5 month and i saw the pic that him and her de i am sad and i keep asking myself i think he wann let me happy ten sad ba and he choose to leave me and find a better girl ten me i really dont know what he thinking about this rs that i with her so long the time and we spend the life i try to text him so many text he never even reply me and i think he got read or maybe change number le and like my sis say if he wann come back he aready come back le and his heart really got me ma and my friend tell me to go home and think if you really wann to talk with her you must think carefully cause after that you must prepare to give him up and cannotchange your mind talk with he camly no threatening no taliking bad thing think about what you want to ask her and think about you wann to say i choose to continue wait for you and i think le if i talk to her olso same thing and i scared i will quarrel with her and cannot talk properly le and slap her and cannot control my temper and the thing cannot settle and make the thing very big and he really play de ma and this is what yopu wann abnd all the thing is over le i will not listen to you anymore but i will wait for you to come back and forver and forever in my heart and last

26/SEP/12

Till have 4 day before he go attachment and i think lot i doing 700 canes for him i decided to hand it at the swig there and i plan all this is got meaning to you hope you will like it and i thinking this idea and m friend also got help me alot i hope this when he see he will happy and the place i choose cause is a beautiful place and i love the place everyday i no mood i will go there and i thinking of you and miss you alot love you forever you are the only one that i love in my heart and wont give up easily and i will wait no matter how long i think i have a chance and i will change anything wait for you to come back and we will have a good start in my life and a lovely couple again and the last and wont break with you le and i wait for you 4 month and all the hurt and pain not happy sad all because of you and i try very hard i can do i will do for you and the thing i can do and you always with your girlfriend but you only pei her 3 day you know i feel ma i feel hurt when ever i think that you leaving me alone and don't care and damn cry to myself and i ask myself why i really regret what i have do and never give him freedom and always quarrel why i never listen my lesson till make the mistake again and you are leaving me getting far and far all the times you give your girlfriend if that times i know you are this tyoe of guy i will rather single forever and wont ask you for stead le and fall in love with you if we till walk together we already 1 year 4 month why you must like that treat me you think i am a fucking idiot or you treat me as a rubbish just throw there and don't want me le and i till a stupid wait for you all my friend have just tell me to find a new one but i never give up i will try jiayou jiayou you you need a times to thinking who is good to you and do alot of thing let you happy and i know now your heart was so confuse dont know want to choose which one is my girlfriend and one is my ex is being with me and settle and happy each day and the love is there and is deep and we say we will married if we till old and forever lao gong and lao popo and walk to path that is our life and you have break promise and you say you wont leaving e jus like that and you did that to me i don't know i till want to trust you and believe you again ma you have break our promise it was a sad thing i have ever had ..... everyday i lie to you my hurt my pain cause i really don't know i want what and you are believe me and say i am same with last time i got really change and i will show you one day you will stock and will say that is good and my wish to every birthday that come i wann you to pei me eat the cake and and pei me and stay at my side with me dont leave me i don't want alone celebrate and i will more sad and every sad or stress i will share with you no matter where you go and you always with me listen my sad thing and when you tell me your heart till haven't forget me and the heart you wann to care is me i was too happy and you ask me i love you before i say yes i already love you alot you are my boy that cannot leave de and i promise you de thing i will listen to you will forever care me and you have any sick i will use my life to save you and at your side with you god make me have him back and hope that he break with her girlfriend end my story with a sad thing and no times to write blog

4/8/12

I start my work first day at the Newton I so scared first time work at hotel I was so scared and tired keep wann sleep ten about 5 they beath us the thing that we should need to do but even I am new I will try my best to do properly and dun makes any mistake at there the boss very firces about that I was so boring feel like go shopping sia they talk ten after that yuting friend ask us wanna eat mii and yuting nvr eat idk even I hungry but I wann on diet Ahaahaha so funny ten after that we go choose the size of the uniform I can't believe I wear s size ten after that we go change ten we trid the b....... Ten I help yuting to spray the hair spray till her mouth haha ten she help mii to spray the hair hahah I look at my hair the colour was gona I hate the spray but the work can't have can't hair and must be proper and do anything wrong must from your pay less 7:30 the wedding start I take the drink till I can go die cause it damm heavy and I gv to faint I no more energy to take but I tell myself you can de Jiayou Jiayou ten after that the guy ask mii and yuting to stand at the door there and the person tell us that later they come In must know the number it hard to mii when yuting tell mii you jus see like that is easy for you ten I can make it I so happy after that we go my table and serve the drink to the guest and I try the pour the drink it is easy job but I keep see the time is about 9:30 so fast I have work 5hrs plus 4 more hour ten end it was tired but I manage to finish then the end of my work I need to move the chair and wipe the table ten change the thing I hate my group cause got a aunt keep very irritating ten I know my new friend she Olso with mii help each other hahah is damm fun and enjoy ten after we get our pay we go change to dress to go planet we wait for the taxi so long ten after ten her friend gve us 10 dollar to gve us take cab ten after that we go find annoying ten we go planet it was tired but I wann till wann to go cause it fun and after that I ask my ex to come cause ahe say he wann to take care mii and look after mii ten I meet him at there ten we go in the planet I saw his friend lying at there I wann help but he say dun wann ten kk lol. .......we go in drink abit ten after that we decided to go mac to eat cause we hungry I treat my ex wen I eat my stomached was full cause of the beer ten after that when I wann buy I dun noe what yuting say to him ten after that we talk a lot ten we eat finish I wann smoke my ex dun smoke so many not good ten I say last kk he say kk ten after tat I dun why he drop yuting hp till can't open we try but till cnt we must go do tomorw ten after that we wann go back ten yuting tell his bf ten they started to quarrel wen yuting tell his bf the face was turn to another person I so scared I dun know what to do I ask them not to quarrel I will do for her the hp dun worry ten kk ten after that they go take cab ten mii annoying my ex wait for nr5 ten go his house stack ten keep waiting I say I very tired he ask mii to sleep at his shoulder and I was so xinfu thing even I tired till got him at my side I so happy and he peii mii and after that he wann kiss mii again I very shy I dun dare to kiss him back and after that I say I wann to smoke he dun allow we quarrel again it was sad thing again why we always quarrel like last time he was sad and I say I wann to buy for him the troat thing he say dun wann save your money I wann buy for him he dun wann ten he gve mii attitude and shout at mii I was so scared same with last time I say I dun buy I make him sad Haiiz why I so useless I hate myself why and ask myself why must quarrel we cnt happy ma ten after that we wait for the bus I sleep again I say very long ten he say guai wait for awhile kk finally the bus come I can rest le I rest at his shoulder again and sleep he wann kiss mii ten I kiss him back I was so happy have the time with him my life have a lot of memoirs I wann him with my side take care mii and I till love him and I really hope can patch my only wish I hope is real I wann him to think properly if he love mii he must choose mii must break with her gf he keep say dun know I dun know how the heart thing ten after that we reach his block there ten we talk ten after that we 3 cnt go back the house so sad we have to slack at the blocks sit for our parent to lent us to go in ten he sleep at my leg again like last time all we did Olso go back to that time we have know each other during 1 yrs plus he keep touch mii I was so itchy hahah it fun I love him and after that we sleep at each other hand and after that I sleep It was very smooth haha finally the door is open he go up and charge my hp and we wait till the first bus come ten after that we waiting ten the bus come we hug and kiss each other I really love him a lot and miss him I she bu de him

21/07/11

9 more day to go to his birthday how I wish I can celebrate with him but I can't le I only can do thing to give him and I gonna make fish for him and cook myself I hope he will like it even I dun now how to cook I will do my best to try I hope it will succeful and I will jiayou I hope this special can make him happy and do better ten his girlfriend I think I can do only this and I think I am a useful why everything I do I will regret and I already change to be better person I keep wait for you and I miss you a lot I feel like hugging you i wann you forever with mii I really scared one day I will die and I can't see you anymore and I have no enough blood I gave you the letter it is wrong why you even never text mii I really very scared and afraid and I wann the answer I really fun know how you feel after you reading the letter maybe you think if I wann you but I have gf le I can't or maybe wish wann can give mii xinku I really hope they will break cause I only girl treat her good and buy thing for him I nvr cause a person go die

we are so boring we take pic at imm

i not happy at all we go pei huiyu play at immm

21/06/12

today huiyu say wann to meet mii ten i say kk ten we go lot one buy the bag for her it cost 17.90 ten we ask the aunt can discount ma ten she call the aunt ten can discount ten become 17 so good and huiyu will like it cause it was nice and i so long nvr buy for her something cause she is my sister i love her and i long times nvr see her le i miss her and after buying we go eat with annling and we share the bee boon and it was very full and after that we go take mrt go to jurong east imm meet them and we reach early ten we go walk and shopping awhile till they come and they say they go out soon ten i say okay ten we go mos burger buy milk tea and we talk and they finally reach le i soon can see her le i so happy ten after that we go the level 4 that time mii and wong bring her go de she play again she play til so happy i olso happy but i miss him if he come with us more good and after plying all the games she was tired and she so cute and after that she go ply water and she go change to the shirt that she bring and she was very shine cause she not wearing her cloth she wea her sister shirt ahahah ten i say dun shine la go play she play the water keep run there and play around and having fun and mii and annling and her sister talk we are happy too this is my memious of us and next ime olso can play tgt after that we go dicso and buy something to let hui yu eat she buy the fries eat and after that she ask annling can do sand art ma ten annling say can ten we go do we play with the colour on the pic do finsh ten sand art ten we go mac they buy coke ten we take suttle bus to go back jurong east wen we at the bus huiyu say my ex gf do something for him i very sad and dispointed and why i cnt do it i feel like crying maybe the girl can gve him alot of happy i cnt i am loser and i so useful i feel sad

9/6/12

Today wen i wann to use my friend com ten i go fbk ten my ex post the pic with her gf i saw the pic i heart pain and i cnt recover and i see that he nvr hold his hand i very happy and i dun noe got the chance to patch back

26/5/12

I was so scared I till got 2 more day to go and I must think very hard and I Aready change my character le and I will gve you freedom and I will not ask so much I wann we happy we are love each other and we have a good merious and a beatiful day you are making mii more happy and I sad bt you are my side with mii to share all the thing with mii I pray very hard and I ask god that this father say that uncle you rally wann to see us like that Ma I hope you can try your hard to help us and your child wong till think I need to wait till mon And I tell myself I can de and must trust myself I was very stress I have a lot of thing to settle Rs family and friend how I life my father know I was sad and I know he olso sad but I really really hope we can have a start in our life and I really learn my listen I will listen to listen and this few day I nvr text boy cause I till have you in my heart and you re the one I love you are a baby boy you are cute and you buy all the thing you say I treat not good I was wrong is good you are the best boy I have ever thank god gve mii this bf I really miss him a lot ystd his classmate say that he think wann to patch back Ma I was very happy mii and my friend go buy fish and I decided to do for him and after that we go find the ear pieces that I make spoil actually I dun wann make spoil de he love it and he dun wann waste money and I buy a same ear pieces for him and I was tired I find and find really have I very happy and after that I decided to go Yulin hse do for him de fish ten his classmate say dun wann she say that you dun go find him he very fan he got exam soon I understand Jiayou and I till wait for him de till he gve mii answer and if patch back I will do the fish and put in the lunch box for him to eat at sch and at his wann I make for him de he will think I was so good and thinking if Patch back is good and she nvr treat mii like jail And got freedom le I have a lot thing have done for him I hope he gve mii a chance to do and I nvr eat and I no app and I only drink water this few day cause my fewer jus kk and I wann to married with him wen I 25 I wann have a bbay with him and he will be so happy and I know he need to go army next year after the 2 year

20/05/12

today mii and my friend we go wong shau hwei hse ten yulin knew that he at home cause the window open and i keep call wong shau hwei and i say i till love you and i wann talk to you after that he saw mii ten he call mii i say if you dun wann to see mii i will die and let u see ten after that he say die lol i dun care ten after say i wann to bath ten after that hang up le ten yulin tell mii to beg him on the floor ten i do it i go beg on the floor to let him see and a couple keep seeing mii and i keep say wong shau hwei ten after that got 0ne girl scold mii ten i say not your problem is my problem why you wann care i keep fight with her sia and after that yulin and zh ask mii to come up i decided to take life but i scared ten after that i walk up the stair and walk till very tired and i finish reach 7 floor i very scared and i finally saw him le ten after i go take the lift with him ten we talk he say he wont love mii anymore and till got other girl ten i keep cry i say to wong wong i dun wann i know you till love mii de only ask your not to love mii and you say you wann call that grl and somemore say that grl good and after that he wann to go ten i keep hug him ten murder him and cheek and i keep ask him you really wan break ma and after that he tempeer come up le ten after that he push mii alawy and pit till my hand ten after that till cn patch bck ten after that wong mother come he see why we fight ten he scold wong say that i teach u cn fight and we fight are wrong ten after that her mother keep talk to mii say that love cnt be force if that person dun wann you le they aready gve up le and you so young you can find a good one and our charather are very hard and likethat how to be tgt she say must change and cnt say break and let each other cool down one month and get all over again and we must change like that we can be tgt very long and he wann freedom i will not force him le and i really hope that we can be again and have a fresh day for us and be happy like last time and the mother say thatu must study and go sch cnt dun go sch ten i promise her but i really no mood to study it is very stress and i feel like quiting sch and somemore i feel lke die and i will not find him anymore le and let him thnk the past we have tgt and happy tgt that time we stead and we trust each other i really hope that he nvr chnge and till love mi after 1 month i hope my birthday got him to celebrate with mii i wil be happy you know all the 1 year is he take care mii my sickness and i dun get so many stress my friend all tell mi to gve him a time to think i will gve him the chance hope our memerious can help us remember esch day god i pray that the day come i very happy with my bf and i will wait for him till th day come

19/3/12

why we quarel cause of the pic thing he really change le he will jus take de last time i dun why i hate it i think i should nt come de if he dun like i will nt force him de maybe i was wrong bba very tired he say why my heart so hard de must have it de i always is like that something i am losse ba i dun noe i should gve up ma my feel tell mii he nt loving mii le how we can continue together cause we always break why why i think i will nt stead with him de i was so sad life you can tell mii what to do ma we must gve each other a cool down time ba i hope everyday happy not sad if nt i think i should die ba why alwys we cnt believe each other and we always said the thing nt the same ten quarrel again i should be alone more good i only have my family stress only angle you can tell mii what to do ma i was so scared

24/02/12

today we have shm we doing the fake hair four section only i start do teacher ask us to test 1 hrs i go wet fake hair ten i let go the hair ten tangel ten teacher wait all ppl to come back the sit ten start i was so scared to do cause teacher keep look at mii we start 11 i satrt do my class olso do ten we do my thing keep drop ten i nervious and i try to do and teacher say stop doing the hair concentrate on the thing that you do and i do it fast we only blow dry and cural and in the end i never do finish ten 2times i dun noe spend how many min to do ten in the end i finish prove that i can do it yeah jiayou the esson 3 hour so lin do till i pek chey and i dun gve up and i keep do ten after that finish sch le

this is my friend i Always call her she very cute my friend all dun like her hahaha she look nice on make up hahahah





this is my friend i Always call her she very cute my friend all dun like her hahaha she look nice on make up hahahah

20/02/11

mon wen peQ lessson we have make up my friemd help mii do it was so nice and i take with my frind look like a ghost bt she very cute my friend all say wann take pic with mii and say o so nice hhahaah it was fun i wait for all finish ten i do it was a joke cause i scared i do make up very ugly so i dun wann to do teacher scold mii say that i cnt go home must do finish ten can go home all my friend they put 2 colour very nice haahhahh