i really think that love can maintain one day in love with my boyfriend it doesn't wrong sometime we cannot understand but he really care me and love me alot and we have been together omost want 1 year 4 month i really appericate what you have done and really have think our realaship in our path i really very happy i have think alot and i should not give up on this love that god really give me a chance to have you in my life to take care me for the pain i have suffer and i really tell myself to change cause you never change you really will lose the love that at your side with you and i really cannot without you and you have help me with a big case that i cannot forget but i believe that i have you i can change my life without one person at my life and i want you to walk with me sometimes i was a child thinking but now i aready awake what i have done in my mind i cannot being like that anymore and i need a guy really stay at my side forever with me long long

this few month have been quarrel with my bf only a small think and i make very big sometimes i really think that i have being little childish till haven grow up and i sometimes i very stress and i have depression and when i started to be no mood i will think to do such a thing like eating medicine 20 or drink beer cause i think that my bf wont care for me and love me anymore i will be smart to promise all the thing that you have tell me and i will not dont care but i was thinking that this is love or like me and sometimes when i tell you my problem you wont even listen to me and start quarrel and i must say sorry to you being a girlfriend must really understand each of the word that you tell him and yet make so many thing in each day when we are meeting each other i must try very hard to hold this realaship cause i know that my bf really love me alot and very stress and sometimes we never even thing a way that can not be quarrel this will happened that each other will not be happy and sad my bf have giving me alot of the chance and yet i dont know how to treasure and he say this is only chance that he ive me that times he say he feeling fake and no more love me and he feel, like giving me 2 week break and think what can we improve and i tell him that i want to jump down and he say you really must do it all the thing that you promise dont not make mistake again and i listen to him sometimes i know i am no mood cause you scold me and you dont understand what sick i have sometimes i need to rest if not i will faint and very weak my body baby i really love you alot

When I know that you go katong I don't know why I so sad and maybe abut till in my heart and I think you aready forget me and you have aready go camp le this is good u know how to think more maybe u will think that u do this is wrong and with wrong person if u want me to come back I will not come back anymore cause I no longer love you and I will go back to your side

long time diodnt have chance to write a blog i was busy i have a new boyfriend at my birthday and we stead together i know on that day i was like a sudden to accept a love after so long and now i have a new start in my life even we always quarrel and i know it my fault i will not do it again i will change to be a guai and a good girl after i have him and he was very good but not the samne feeling i have but i have to face the fake and the god really treat me very good and even i was not happy i try to promise all the thing that i promise him he tell me that he will change and i olso must change and i very happy thing that he want to enagae with me and i must reach the sge and i know this few month i have learn alot of thing that he teach me and he really apperiate me and cry for me cause everyday i let him stress over alot of thig work and love and i tell myself i will stop and this is the last i do and i must believe a new love can let me walk along the pass that in my pass i forget it and concerate evereyday i with him i now staying at his house for every night we have a nice day and laugh and smile this is wat i want i did care anything i will care only me and him together with him not the wrong is right and i know that he will not sweet cause everyday i make him angry and didnt do anything i really try to understand him and i really know that he dont like the girl everyday give face and additude and must know how to control my temper and it is not me anymore i know i have to another person but my heart till the same and no matter what will happened i will say break anymore cause i know that it will hurt a person that really love you and what he will think that you no longer love him and i will be smart and any of the problem i have and i have reach the problem that i cannot settle i will always cry and think what i have to settle and all the thing that he help me to settle and i no need to think so much and find money thank for the job baby i really know that you are helping me and if without you i dont what i will do and always think too much and i have depertion and canoot control sometimes i reslly hate myself why i must like that did to myslf i believe one day that i reAlly have and no problem stop here will write more of my baby

i already plan what should i do with your coming one month birthday and i will try to do all the best that i can in the day coming i hope this surprise can let you happy and remind all the thing back to the pass and forget just only me and will not be forget me in your heart and i always the first love that stay so long with you in your life and this is what god want you find me and let your life getting better and my love to you will not change and forever in my mind and i dont even think any lob=ve that i want when you already love me the part of the movement i already know what i want in my life and i will think more further further and i will not forget all the past and your laugh in my heart and i wish to see it again once it already gone and did it come back after being so many year that i waiting for you and you will think that why i have choose a wrong person but you will think why i become bad and always text you cause i love you alot and i must stop wat i am thinking now i must always think of you every day not other people and i only love you the most and no one can replace you in my heart and i cry of tear being sad tat you never be seeing each other for a long times and not even a friend anymore and i wish how can be the first day we seeing each other and we was like very sweet and now we are emery and i use to text you and i cannot dont texyt you cause i use to it araedy and now i need is a love at my side and a shoulder can let me xinfu de feeling i want

being one year waiting for you and dotn know where you have been

i wait for you 1 year and i have suffer alot of hurt and alot in my heart but i dont mind keep waiting for you an loving you in the day have pass and go through my mind and i know that you cannot even forget me and till thinking of me and i have the feeling that one day you will get off of the thing and try to think back what the pass you have a love with a girl and it was so deep till can be so long together each day and even thing have make till so different but we till carry on to let each other cool down at each time and the day and i really cannot have my life being without you now i want is that you can let my wish come true and being take care me again and only last i have in my time and day i cannot promise that i do with guy but i force myself to do that and suffer with the guy that i dont like and let you know that i have reson being doing all thing and i never do wrong thing and make you dont want forget me and i cannot everyday stop texting you cause we use to it to text each other everynight and everyday we have meet each other and i really miss the time i being with you and i hope the time can turn back i will treat you very good like now how the gf treat you like that i know each guy love the way the girl treat them very nice but you know me and my character de ma and you want me to change and it like give me a very hard challage to myself and i each day thinking how you have been after i am not around with u and u got even try thinking of me and think that how my life going now till the same or maybe change to another person again and not the first time have know you and i wish that when my birthday another 26 more day is the day that i really dont know what to do and my love person have areaady gone in my life and i cannot even feeling the love and care inside my heart and forever jus continue walk the life that i want and the path that i walk is toally cannot even walk till the end that i meet you and now is that you dont even want to meet me and see my face anymore and you have started to hate me and one day you will slowly forget me and tell all your friend that i have ever have a gf like my ex that never even want to care and always quarrel very single day i have being with my family and outside i dont have any peaceful life that i wan tand the girl keep force the thing that i want and i know that we wont be patch back to each other anymore but our love till havent gone till remain in our heart and forver never leave a space for other even it take a long time and till have the same feeling with you and i will never forget you i will always remeber you and i will accept u when you want to come back the time that you cannot lose a girl like me keep waiting for you when after army or forver i dont mind being alone and i jus need you and i have enough i dont wish to do anything right now and i will wait for the answer and i will till be take care of you being everyday see the puc at your fbk i only can do this and no other way i can do and let see what the god have give me the right way to go and i have enough of everything but i till suffer the pain in my heart and no one can feel it in my heart and my heart aready full of you and never stop loving you even my heart have die and my mid till have you when the first love that i have being so good and happy for all the thing that i have .....

30/11/12

Aready 7 month le going to 8 month soon this few month I have suffer a lot of thing like I crying a lot and miss you and suffer hurt and pain from you and you is hat you wan come back ten come you don't wan come back then never come back I don't why and don't even care my feeling and care me anymore before you say before that your heart till gve me that you want to care the person and this is lies I hate you and I don't why you must to change a person not like you anymore and bring yourself never think of other people only think of yourself and sometimes I really no mood an I was thinking how you treat me an yet you did to me like that and now you thinking am lie you and you can lie to me back and revage all the thing to me this is want you wann to do and let me see weather you are this type of person and this is what you do at first don't blame me treat you till like this bad and I getting feeling that you are getting far and far away from me and I am more scared that you won't come back le and maybe cabbage number and do even wann to care me and let me see your sister le but I till waiting fr you to come back to my side no matter how I hate you always my boy that I love the most and no one can steal at my heart and I will not change my mind of getting a better guy in this life I have choose you yet you leaving me you will regret one day de and only have you seriously you are playing me a fool sometimes I keep starting at the sky ask them why must like that Chen fa wo and I aready change to be a good girl that you know me before and I hope that you always at my side protect me ad my side no matter what thing happens I till cannot stop smoking cause I was very sad and I have a lot of word want to tell you but I for have the chance to tell you le I only can write on the blogger and you olso cannot see de and I hide and we are stop texting. Each other since 2oct 2012 I think maybe I always lies you that why you no more trust me again and once and last and end le or you maybe think that I change a person don't even put this word as real only put like shit or you think not the person that you know me before in the past that playing true and dare with you the first time that cute and pretty and smile at you the look at me when I look at you the time.... You really make my holl life so different for me and even through spoil my mood and change my life become good to wrost and become more crazy like a stupid Idoit sometimes I really don't know what you thinking and I don't know I should gve up or let you be happy or maybe continue waiting for you and be the stupid and stubborn girl keep doing the same thing an sometimes I really get crazy over so many thing sometimes I really think that I am alone and I don't want anyone to suffer with me and at my side sad for me that why I don't wann them to pei me out I rather I ownself being alone an I have told myself you are always like that after he had leaving you alway cannot go in the world that you want and alway hide in the dark and no one can even see you cannot even see the beautiful world and place that you have been through you have in this life and this few day I keep sleep very late sometimes 4 till cannot sleep all cause of you an make me more sad in everything that I have and all the thing is you make me like that all your fault I will make your life till like that same as me suffer te thing you never suffer before you wann be happy it seem like I cannot even do it and I tell myself must be stronge at each sec times and like you fall and cannot even stand up and being yourself and try looking down on you and I don't wish to live at this world an fucking nothing I can do I hate this world you always my important person that I never now you and alway in my heart no one can steal from me and without you I cannot even are something and keep doing the stupid stuff in stealing thing so that can make myself more intersting if you know that I doing this thing you will more get angry this is what I now doing all the thing is you make me till I need to do this type of thing and I don't like it is fun but I really don't wann go police again I cannot put you a side and don't care you maybe that I loving you a lot and tht much till kelp put you as my angle an always and I keep pray for you this few day cause I seem keep raining everyday I scared that you cannot take care of yourself and kena the rain I don't wann you to fall a sick and you have to suffer doing your work don't let it happens this moment ad I have ask your friend to past to you that I have talk to him on fbk ask him to take Carr you dot let me worry you every day like. A mad person I believe that you can do it I want you be a healthy and eat more thing and make yourself more stonger I always put your family as my family cause your mum treat me so well till I love her do much and I olso like her she support me in study and try do well in this study and must really do it this is for you life I have started to love your family no matter how I will pray with your family that I can do when someone is leaving you doesn't he will come back to your side or maybe 1 yrs or 2 yrs that work Na see weather you can wait how long this depends on you de this must see you have work hard or maybe can get this heart back and match with your heart this is call love and a prefect love that you have and being together I keep waiting till my tear and hurt have suffer more and more once again and the last and I believe that he will come back my fade have tell me to waiting for his text and what I promise him the thing I still haven't forget don't lies to you and don't with boy and always remember this cannot fuck pray to god I hope that you really can help me once and last time I promise that I will not do it again how I wish you can take care me when I was about to sim at this time and stay at my side till my sick recover and I wish you can hug me when I was cold and I think my sick will be all right soon and become a normal back he is the right Person and softhearted no matter what I will support you and jiayou for your working and no matter how hard you olso can manger to do and work hard you can do it de wong Shau Hwei alway thinking of him I will go the place that we have been and that is our memory for me and him and reflex what you haw did wrong why will happened this type of thing do I have a chance to see you and forgive what I have did wrong I keep asking the god this is a good question but no answer