30/11/12

Aready 7 month le going to 8 month soon this few month I have suffer a lot of thing like I crying a lot and miss you and suffer hurt and pain from you and you is hat you wan come back ten come you don't wan come back then never come back I don't why and don't even care my feeling and care me anymore before you say before that your heart till gve me that you want to care the person and this is lies I hate you and I don't why you must to change a person not like you anymore and bring yourself never think of other people only think of yourself and sometimes I really no mood an I was thinking how you treat me an yet you did to me like that and now you thinking am lie you and you can lie to me back and revage all the thing to me this is want you wann to do and let me see weather you are this type of person and this is what you do at first don't blame me treat you till like this bad and I getting feeling that you are getting far and far away from me and I am more scared that you won't come back le and maybe cabbage number and do even wann to care me and let me see your sister le but I till waiting fr you to come back to my side no matter how I hate you always my boy that I love the most and no one can steal at my heart and I will not change my mind of getting a better guy in this life I have choose you yet you leaving me you will regret one day de and only have you seriously you are playing me a fool sometimes I keep starting at the sky ask them why must like that Chen fa wo and I aready change to be a good girl that you know me before and I hope that you always at my side protect me ad my side no matter what thing happens I till cannot stop smoking cause I was very sad and I have a lot of word want to tell you but I for have the chance to tell you le I only can write on the blogger and you olso cannot see de and I hide and we are stop texting. Each other since 2oct 2012 I think maybe I always lies you that why you no more trust me again and once and last and end le or you maybe think that I change a person don't even put this word as real only put like shit or you think not the person that you know me before in the past that playing true and dare with you the first time that cute and pretty and smile at you the look at me when I look at you the time.... You really make my holl life so different for me and even through spoil my mood and change my life become good to wrost and become more crazy like a stupid Idoit sometimes I really don't know what you thinking and I don't know I should gve up or let you be happy or maybe continue waiting for you and be the stupid and stubborn girl keep doing the same thing an sometimes I really get crazy over so many thing sometimes I really think that I am alone and I don't want anyone to suffer with me and at my side sad for me that why I don't wann them to pei me out I rather I ownself being alone an I have told myself you are always like that after he had leaving you alway cannot go in the world that you want and alway hide in the dark and no one can even see you cannot even see the beautiful world and place that you have been through you have in this life and this few day I keep sleep very late sometimes 4 till cannot sleep all cause of you an make me more sad in everything that I have and all the thing is you make me like that all your fault I will make your life till like that same as me suffer te thing you never suffer before you wann be happy it seem like I cannot even do it and I tell myself must be stronge at each sec times and like you fall and cannot even stand up and being yourself and try looking down on you and I don't wish to live at this world an fucking nothing I can do I hate this world you always my important person that I never now you and alway in my heart no one can steal from me and without you I cannot even are something and keep doing the stupid stuff in stealing thing so that can make myself more intersting if you know that I doing this thing you will more get angry this is what I now doing all the thing is you make me till I need to do this type of thing and I don't like it is fun but I really don't wann go police again I cannot put you a side and don't care you maybe that I loving you a lot and tht much till kelp put you as my angle an always and I keep pray for you this few day cause I seem keep raining everyday I scared that you cannot take care of yourself and kena the rain I don't wann you to fall a sick and you have to suffer doing your work don't let it happens this moment ad I have ask your friend to past to you that I have talk to him on fbk ask him to take Carr you dot let me worry you every day like. A mad person I believe that you can do it I want you be a healthy and eat more thing and make yourself more stonger I always put your family as my family cause your mum treat me so well till I love her do much and I olso like her she support me in study and try do well in this study and must really do it this is for you life I have started to love your family no matter how I will pray with your family that I can do when someone is leaving you doesn't he will come back to your side or maybe 1 yrs or 2 yrs that work Na see weather you can wait how long this depends on you de this must see you have work hard or maybe can get this heart back and match with your heart this is call love and a prefect love that you have and being together I keep waiting till my tear and hurt have suffer more and more once again and the last and I believe that he will come back my fade have tell me to waiting for his text and what I promise him the thing I still haven't forget don't lies to you and don't with boy and always remember this cannot fuck pray to god I hope that you really can help me once and last time I promise that I will not do it again how I wish you can take care me when I was about to sim at this time and stay at my side till my sick recover and I wish you can hug me when I was cold and I think my sick will be all right soon and become a normal back he is the right Person and softhearted no matter what I will support you and jiayou for your working and no matter how hard you olso can manger to do and work hard you can do it de wong Shau Hwei alway thinking of him I will go the place that we have been and that is our memory for me and him and reflex what you haw did wrong why will happened this type of thing do I have a chance to see you and forgive what I have did wrong I keep asking the god this is a good question but no answer