long time diodnt have chance to write a blog i was busy i have a new boyfriend at my birthday and we stead together i know on that day i was like a sudden to accept a love after so long and now i have a new start in my life even we always quarrel and i know it my fault i will not do it again i will change to be a guai and a good girl after i have him and he was very good but not the samne feeling i have but i have to face the fake and the god really treat me very good and even i was not happy i try to promise all the thing that i promise him he tell me that he will change and i olso must change and i very happy thing that he want to enagae with me and i must reach the sge and i know this few month i have learn alot of thing that he teach me and he really apperiate me and cry for me cause everyday i let him stress over alot of thig work and love and i tell myself i will stop and this is the last i do and i must believe a new love can let me walk along the pass that in my pass i forget it and concerate evereyday i with him i now staying at his house for every night we have a nice day and laugh and smile this is wat i want i did care anything i will care only me and him together with him not the wrong is right and i know that he will not sweet cause everyday i make him angry and didnt do anything i really try to understand him and i really know that he dont like the girl everyday give face and additude and must know how to control my temper and it is not me anymore i know i have to another person but my heart till the same and no matter what will happened i will say break anymore cause i know that it will hurt a person that really love you and what he will think that you no longer love him and i will be smart and any of the problem i have and i have reach the problem that i cannot settle i will always cry and think what i have to settle and all the thing that he help me to settle and i no need to think so much and find money thank for the job baby i really know that you are helping me and if without you i dont what i will do and always think too much and i have depertion and canoot control sometimes i reslly hate myself why i must like that did to myslf i believe one day that i reAlly have and no problem stop here will write more of my baby